THe end of a chn 8 drama at 9pm, ending was sad... The person chooses to make a sacrifice when he had his 2nd chance, in the end is a good ending still. No one die...

In real life, how many chances do we get in order to set things right?
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Yes, finally all the assignments has finish.... Ytd stay at friends house for a day and overnite, hehe. was fun though having to go thr all those codes. I try my best le but not alot compare to the rest. We manage to finish most of the requirement. Nvr bathe for a day, hehe. I slept earlier than them, but now still very slpy. Gonna go to sch in the morning, walao, sch from morning 9 to 5 pm afternoon. TIring, reach home just took bath and slept to, 8pm.
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Today, Gem sms mi early in the morning...then ask mi to call her, when start off, she say she wanna go out.... but i say i need to do my assignment. At that time, i should have think before i say, tis is not the first time...i know she is not in a gd mood le after that, if got nxt time dunno she will wan to ask mi ma... or dun bother mi le... O_O haiz, i really am sry. For now we all r tie up with assignments, i oso dun wanna make u sad de...

Was bad, making someone u like sad... i dunno wat to do now but wait for her any reply... I really wanna go out with her.

did work in sch for a day as usual, but nth turn out. Went home, 2nd day eat instant noodles for dinner, not because mum didnt cook but i dun feel like eating rice. feel like codings is feeling my stomache.
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23/05/08
One day without contacting Gem. She oso didnt online. Feel so weird.... I miss her alot, alot, alot... O_O haiz... Oh well, maybe y i kinda know y ba... Today got the ktv sms from Alex when i in sch. Then met Alpha again during my lesson. Got to chat with him for a while, know abit about his sch life and him and his ktv club.. XD

Today, plan ahead on our fyp, i ask them to split who gg to do which part, i split them into chunks le, so they can dun bother to keep saying, discuss. I cut their talk time, make it efficient ba.

About the grp assignment, ytd got into a very gd start, 4 of them went to sch and do the grp assignment together, they have some progress... tats was very gd, cause i know they can do better than wat i can do.... -___- , now i feel so helpless and lousy
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Haha... another day in sch, wat happen to mi, laughing and angry at the same time whenever i think of those two, i making myself abit crazy... I cant be bother with them, but when i think of them like hack care feeliing... i just dunno wat to say...
Dun say fyp la, it is my fault for not organising the meeting in the first place. everything have a fault and u need to make amendment asap, dun let things get out of hand.
Eyes just feel very very tired... i need to take a deep long rest.. and start a fresh guy.
I dun wanna start to become my old self XD
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SO tired these days, working on my fyp and assignment, i did my best, really... Still waiting for my group to pass mi all the fyp things. And i thought i am slow at work cause i seldom write report, cause all very very short de, but i did try to give all my best, after all is my/our fyp ma.

Last Sunday, went out with Gem again, yes another KTV session. Before that, in the morning, we chat on msn, she say she will be wearing a skirt then she told mi not to think so much. zZz. What do you want mi to think? When gg to meet her, I took a jacket with mi, dunno y today feel like bring a jacket.

At orchard as usual, LOL, first time I saw her wear skirt. O_O Look at her more...hehe, rare sight... zzz sleeveless somemore, later she will freeze.. haha. She say she forgot to bring her coat when she went out. Hmmm... so coincidence? I bring the coat for her ma? nvm la, maybe just coincidence...haha. I let her wear the jacket, too big le, cause size M, then she like singing for opera, HAHA, cute.. While waiting for the time to meet up, Alex show up at the Mac, come in le, we in front of him, he nvr saw us. So we wave in front of him... he still say got prefect eye sight..zzz Sure ma?

She took another friend, Steven go ktv. I met him before, a gentleman. She warn them that his singing is loud. Mao, but I see him speak soft spoken wor...

Today I did sing a few song... cause a few ppl ard then I dare to sing. But i very pai seh cause i cant sing well.. Well, he still can sing, Gem say he always sing the same few song de... And i went to the other room to listen to their pk competition. Alex took a photo of mi and Joe cause we 2 are wearing red. Joe ask mi sth when i went to their room. We whisper to one another. He ask mi if i and Gem really is sis & bro... then ask if i ever think of being with her, as in get into relationship... Cause maybe all see us quite close when we are in ktv ba. Gem and Joe sang a english song, which was like wow, all saying they are couple and wish them as if they just married. hehe. But their voice just match and was nice.

Every ktv time, she always so cheerful/happy. Gem sang a lot of duet... She oso did try to sing a new song.

After the ktv, I ask if she is eating with us or going home to eat. She say gg back home to eat instant noodle. I ask stay and eat lor.. (I didnt know till she told mi cause she heard we gg to far east to eat, so far, she cant walk much.) But in the end, took a bus to Marindian to eat. Gem went off with her friend, whisper to mi some things. No ma, i worried when Steven say gg to Geylang to eat then drop her off somewhere there.. zzz.. I dun wan anything to happen to her. I really not jealous and i do trust her. Steven told her to sms mi when she get home. He is really a gd guy man.. He drop her off at a safer area. She took my jacket with her... in case she cold -_-

When having dinner, got her sms waiting for bus, so i call her to talk. Seem like many misunderstanding. We chat abit, the atmosphere wasnt gd at all.. and soon she need time to call her mum while i ate my dinner. After dinner and she finish calling her mum, I call again, she reach home liao. She told mi her mum not at home and there is no food nor instant noodle to eat... -__- should have ask her go somewhere and eat ard orchard rather then let her go home with nth to eat. When talking, very noisy cause the nxt table, Alex and some of them all teasing Lance, poor him. Dunno y today all soot him. After dinner, they all went to PS to tcc for a drink, so i went home myself.

I am really glad i can get friendly with ppl now. Get to know more friends...
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Wake up at 7am +, ytd cant slp well. Ytd, midnite, receive ktv club sms. Today morning chat with Gem abit. THen go school, turns out, the tutor is sick. THen lesson is cancel.

Then my fyp members decide to talk about the fyp thingy. Plain listening will do... dun nid to talk, dun need to argue...just keep really quiet.
They choosing the roles & responsibilities... so many roles.. their name appear everywhere, my name, write one or two can le.... treat mi as wat? outsider arh.. nvr see mi draw so wat?i cant draw? animate? or model...? things can try 1 ma...They talk among themselves can le. They change the storyline... then y the hell u meet for for the first meeting if it is decided? Dun bloody waste my time. We still got alot of assignments.. u all talk so much irrelevent stuff.. Say wat game they play link to the game then can combine... All i heard r these 2 game they play and compare to wat we gg to make. If u all dunno how to comfirm sth, tell mi, i settle everything...and be my old self... i will break this team into pieces. I dun mind soloing. At least I got a start..

Though I know how to program abit, but u need help, i will try to help, so dun bloody piss mi off..
R u guys seriously wanna start off with the fyp or wat.

Dinner no appetite to eat, drink soup onli.

I wan to call her but.... hear her voice
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Everyday worried about many things... assignment assignment and her... dunno wat she is doing, dunno how she is feeling or wat ...
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On msn , dunno wat time le, she was online... she say feel like eating macdonald breakfast, then she complain i everytime slp late, then make her cant eat breakfast.... before gg to ktv...cause last order time is at 10.30am. Before gg off, she say feel like gg out but lazy... O_O but i really have to do my assignment cause tml deadline... I wan to go out with her.

At nite, I decided to call her up, dunno if she is still slping. finally, she pick up... Now I know why she sad... Talk on the phone for a while, listen to all she have to say... ... then she went to eat dinner.
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11/05/08 Continue from the blog tat i have written, decide to put it now.

KTV with Gem, yes another Sunday for ktving., before going out, she ask mi how to put a song lyrics on hp. I help her to put into my hp then went out, I oso have a copy on paper just in case... cause the image file i put into the hp was too small...

During the KTV, suddenly, she say sth about hug -_- ?? Msn got talk sth like tis before....got ma? Die...cant remember..For a moment i was stunt and wah..., can get to hug a ger -_-zzZzz, scare later she slap mi or say molest...I wan to de, but got many ppl there, i abit shy shy de ma, thus oso abit weird leh.. In our ktv room, got 6 ppl, Joe, Camilia, Gem, mi and a couple new to the club.

As usual, she always show her fist in front of mi, dunno y , like she feel like punching mi but i didnt do anything to her wor. O_O nxt time she put fist I bite it better...O_O but mouth not big enough.

She check my wallet and my bag...dunno y leh. But inside also got nth interesting. My diary also always kena spotcheck but inside got nth also.If normal friends wan to see, also let them c lor, unless got some other funny stuff (i dun haf those stuff)

Camilia is married, wow, that is wat my jie told mi, cause she ask la...zzz wow, i didnt know. Her husband came after the ktv thingy then they left early.

Got ppl say jie and mi like couple -___- zzzZZzz Jie always explain back haha, not true. hehe. But very bad if I make her feel awkward that way. I got say to my jie, tat day, she wouldn't though of...but i oso want nth from her ..

She seem more cheerful that day, so am I.. lol. Hope can see her this happy everyday. At least she can relax this way instead of staying at home slping -_-

Dat day, feel like grabbing her hand...but, ...scare she dun like. Then ..lol she help mi massage my neck .. wow,abit weird weird feeling, tot it surppose to be the other way round. Mao, first time grab her hand, Ger hand leh (ya, i first time ma, so excited feeling inside) and hold for a while... O_O ...dunno if i grab very hard, didnt resist so can hold abit ma... hehe

After ktv, jie got ppl invite for dinner le. Then I guess I go home eat instant noodle ba.. But then before gg for dinner, she say wait and then pei mi go eat dinner. Dinner time, they gg to eat at Hans again . Dun really into the food there... So soon we say bb to them and we left.

Off we go to wisma for dinner, well, onli mi eating, she dun wan to eat... O_O diet, nope. When finish my dinner, a qn pop out... omg, wat happen? is she ok? I gave her an answer and so no reaction from her... I say is very common liao, she use to it le -_- I dunno if she like mi or not, but i do like her.. and i wan to see her happy. I am not her type ba, nor any nice bf she had before XD

Can I give it a try....
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13/05/08
Went to sch, yes again... trying to get the assignment working... but i just lazy to do...
And at 2pm, we have no lab to sit inside and do our assignment. Then we find a bench and do there. Around 4+, 4 of us, fyp team gather to discuss our project. That is a very gd start...hehe
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Today, another day to go out and chill & relax... I know now is not the time to slack, but....i cant..
My house here below, got malay wedding, so is noisy.

Went out to KTV again today, yes with my jie... She wan to sing song, overcome le ma? she say she ok le.. SO fast....

Today, got a few new faces and a few regular face.. I try to sing, i try le... -__- it wasnt ok at all..
so ashame... Jie look very happy today, hope tats her true smile lai de...
(the rest i try to write some where :D ), very slpy....

After ktv, pei her meet a friend of hers... she havent had dinner -_- ok then her friend drive her off after chatting at coffee bucks
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Maybe should stop everything, stop my nagging, stop my bad thoughts....
Watever, complain so much also no use, worse is u urself is worse than others, so just shut up...
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Tis two days, while was taking bus to sch, it seem like i got some virus, no one dare to sit nxt to mi... hehe, gd at least i wont be squash...

am i scary, i always ask.... always lose confident because of tis small things...
jie sometime pei her go ktv..., wonder if she felt weird also ma... haiz..felt sry for her to walk with mi -_- sad

Nxt time must wear mask go out, maybe nicer XD

Dunno wat is she doing these few days... bz with work? ...no news...
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Today, another blog, wait for my friend to finish the installation, then can start doing the assignment. But, took a long time to make it work...

But at last it works, and we start to do, but then again, how to do is another problem.

After all the stuff, i and 2 other friends started to discuss how to do our fyp, i abit scare to talk to them cause it is like 2 against 1...., bt can feel that they are not very please with mi, but i dun wanna regret abt this so i volunteer myself to be leader, though it is just a name.. I dun wan them giving all those funny funny ideas, but then again, i will accept watever ideas tat ppl give as a brain storm session.

hmm...i being to become a bug again...zzzz. dun need ppl to understand but for mi to know :D
nad talk to mi on msn, tat is rare, cause whenever i talk to her, she just dun feel like talking to mi, which is wat i think... most time just throw wet blanket on mi. Anyway, she say some weird stuff, which i think it is weird. Saying she remember the fyp tat i help her with her codes and when to her club to help her... -__- say i nice and kind ... ok tats it... tats wat she think...

nice or not, kind or not is up to ppl to say but i sure i am not tat sort of guy...
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The motivation is becoming greater, and my courage is getting stronger...
Everyday been a very fresh start, didnt do my work at all... i been trying to help myself to those codes... but everyday, i was able to force myself to those codes, but really, it didnt work out cause all my codes wont work
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Today, afternoon class..trying to do the ubuntu assignment 1 together with the rest.. trying the tutor sample codes but it couldnt compile. haiz... wats wrong with it, my friends kept trying but unsuccessful. Haiz... I nvr did my job during this semester, i knew it.... and i move along with it... wat is wrong with mi? i cant blame anyone, but myself...

In the end, we did nth, all was left undone.

After the afternoon class, we went to eat our dinner, then went to the fyp briefing. So tiring... Lol, no wonder tat guy look so familiar,... haha I saw him in ktv club that my jiejie have join... so he also doing final yr project, wow....

During the briefing or before tat, we talk alot wat to do with our fyp, especially rayston, he talk alot abt wat to do with his fyp, alot of ambisous and programming pro.. I was hoping to do with him for rpg de, and so does he, sad...

After the briefing, we are left with our grp to discuss sth with our supervisor... then left with our grp discussion. Seriously, we nvr talk much abt the fyp at all. They talk alot, but,... i haver no idea howw codes are to work... I really need someone to talk to.......
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Ytd, got a msg from my jie whom i tot was slping, saying she is sad...
After that, till after i came home from sch, no news from her. I try calling, and sms... dunno is she alright or not. haiz... hope she reply back somehow...

Today, went to sch to do another assignment, and almost finish it..... almost... Glad to have a grp of friends doing together cause if u r no gd, 1 cant complete ba... for mi lor, cause i slack alot... XD

The grping is out, haiz.. THEM AGAIN.. wat did i owe them, ..cant get away from them...pls, hope someone can help mi with the last semester if tis semester i manage to pass.

mum sick liao, so have to depend on myself...
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Going to try tis week, gonna push myself to do work...
Have to hand in a few assignment by tis week.
Today, no sch but still gg to sch to do assignment..did for the whole afternoon, but nth as a result. sian...

Saw kelvin today , ...wow, with anither different girl? LOL. who cares.

After sch, mi and my friend while waiting for our bus, we saw a note on the pillar at the bus stop. Ya, llike my friend say, cant believe ppl are so wu liao ba... do such things ... and pasting their hp no. there...
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3/5/08 In school I try to do the work alone. Hope can do without others help, and try to do my part in the grp.

Now i was trying to depend on other ppl, other grp, worse, wat have i become... Why cant i do anything right tis semester. On my way home, saw Kelvin again with his gf, i think. He ask mi if i want to sell my online game char, but i keeping everything... -_-

After school, went to meet my friend at PS. Ate dinner, then went cine to watch movie. Watching the movie "Over My Dead Body" midnite show. Before the movie, Alan wanna buy sth so we walk all the way to paragon. At nite, so hot and tired. Walking through orchard road at nite, so many things to see, really like to see the people hanging ard there at nite, their fashion and the way /action they did. After Alan bought his stuff, we went back to cine and take a rest. Haiz, i wanna c "Ironman" de.... so sad.. feel like my retribution for nelacking my friends.

The movie was abit funny and romanic. Haha.

Came back home at 2am, saw my bro had bought my com to life.
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Nowadays, slpt late but woke up very early. Dunno wat is wrong with mi, or i got alot of things to think of...
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Meow, haiz, keep thinking, keep feeling more sick...

Feel really like killing myself, hate myself so much.
Same feeling as the first time ba...

Somehow abit more cheerful when doing my work. At least I know got friends...
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Like/love somemore secretly, it is painful, painful to see the one you like so close with other ppl. If he/she feel down, so were u. Care for him/her without his/her notice....

Like/love someone, after saying it to him/her, how does the person feel? you really want to know, and wat will happen nxt, wat will he/she reply....or wat reaction?

Like/love someone doesnt mean the other have to do the same, it can be 1 sided. Yi siang qing yuan. Giving all out to one, wanting/not wanting any return....

Like/love someone tat also feel the same way towards u, it is hardess to find, and difficult to handle. loving one another, must understand each other. Knowing each other gd/bad points and like them as they are. Saying tis sound more easier than doing it. Tis all takes lots and lots of time.
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These few days, every single day beginning to feel like saying vulgarity le. Sian, hope it is just temporary.

Woke up earlier than expected. Slack abit and wait for outing.... Siang Liang called mi up when I was gg out. Again, sian, i reject his outing and Keng Soon. I am really sry. This is the 2nd time liao, maybe some other time, ...

-_- Gem reach faster than mi. XD Today, most of the ppl there are regulars singers. Meeting a whole new grp of ppl again. During the ktv session, how I wish we two were at our own home. Gem come to accompany mi onli -_-. She no mood during the singing session cause it is hard for her to choose her song cause controller is pass ard those few ppl. haiz... i oso feel sad and pai seh, shouldnt have say i gg to tis ktv thingy. sian, i cant sing..zzzz. jie also ssay mi ... walao.. the ktv nxt room got a few cute gers.. cute neh... i told my jie and she say go lor -_-, ....(i hope to c wat is inside their heart rather then outside...)

*when she sing with her hand language, so cute.... hehe....her expression.

Treat her for dinner, chat abit and wait with her for her bus, then i went home.

I saw a small kitten at the stair case near my house, look like kena abandon, so cute, feel like taking it home...
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